If my life were a movie I would fast-forward through junior high. My junior high years were painful. Like every junior high kid, I was dealing with awakening sexuality, and struggling with who I was and how I would make my mark in life. But I was sure I was alone with these strange feelings.
如果我的人生是一出电影，我会快进初中 求学那部分内容。我的初中 时光充满了痛苦。像每个初中生一样，我得面对情窦爱欲的萌芽，为认识自我建立自我而挣扎，苦恼该如何给自己的人生烙下印记。但那时，我确信自己得单独面对这些奇怪的感受。
I was trying and failing in a number of things. I wanted to excel in athletics but had not yet figured out that that would never happen. I wasn”t academic enough to spell academic. (I”m a little surprised right now that I was able to spell that without the aid of my nifty little Microsoft Word spell checker). I was trying to gain a spot in the pecking order as a new kid in school. All the while, I remember suffering the rejection of most of my peer being cut from the basketball team, failing to play football that I so wanted to play. It was a time of questioning how girls saw me and wanting so much to be loved and a
